Food Bits

Weight: 248.2.  WOOT!

Breakfast: 2 eggs.

Lunch:
One salad. Lettuce bell pepper onion cheese ham pepperoni. Very little ranch.
Toppings off 4 pieces of tandoori chicken pizza

Dinner:
snacked.  some meatballs in bbq sauce, some sausage bits, some cheese.  some carrots.  didn't count or measure anything.  Most stuff I didn't even have access to calorie or carb counts. and 3 petit fours.  mmmm!

I think my carbs were under control.  Not so sure about calories.

Drinkage:
coke zero.
coffee (splenda & coffeemate)
water

Breakfast:
1/3 C Cottage Cheese - 74cal, 3 carbs

Lunch:
Mcdouble, no bun - 240cal, 4carbs

Dinner:
Genghis Khan Mongoloian Grill.  OK, this one's impossible to calculate for me.  Mongolian is done buffett style - you fill a bowl, take it to the grill, and they cook it.  I had 2 plates of food.
plate 1: lamb, chicken, pork, cabbage, onion, mushroom, bell pepper.  added hot oil, vinegar, soy sauce, garlic
plate 2: lamb, spinach, green onion, mushroom, bell pepper.  added garlic, hot oil. 
Note that plate 2 was less than 1/2 the size of plate 1, since plate 1 was 2 bowls - one for meat & one for veggies.  Plate 2 all fit in 1 bowl, with room left over. They're cooked on an open grill, with water tossed on to steam them/keep them from burning
I drizzled some plum sauce (total less than 2tbsp) on each plate after it was cooked.

I don't know where dinner comes out at all.  Based on the volumes and type of food I had, and what I used for filler (I ate more spinach, cabbage, and mushroom than everything else put together), I think I'm ok.

Drinkage:
water, diet coke, diet dr pepper, add SF cherry toranis.

Daily Total: ???

I demanded jalapeno poppers tonight.  I've been craving them SO much.  So Jason made them.

1 jalapeno - 4cal, 1 carb
1 slice bacon -50cal, 0carb
2 tbsp softened cream cheese - 90cal,  2 carb
cut jalapeno in half and clean
fill each half w/ 1 tbsp cream cheese
slice bacon in half, the short way.
wrap one slice of bacon around each jalapeno half. secure w/ toothpick
bake for about 25min @ 400 (just put as many as you like on a baking sheet - jelly roll style, NOT cookie sheet style - don't want the grease from bacon to run off in the oven!)

TADA!!!  low-carb jalapeno poppers
144cal, 3 carbs / 2 poppers

I cooked last night! 


1 bell pepper, 1 onion.  Cooked em up in a pan with a little water (for steaming-type stuff) and various spices.
added to 1 roma tomato, 1/4 C shredded cheddar, and 2 tbsp sour cream.  Split in half.
bell pepper - 24cal, 6 carbs
onion - 44cal, 10 carbs
tomato - 16cal, 4 carbs
cheddar - 114cal, 1 carb
sour cream - 45cal, 2carbs
total: 243cal, 23 carbs

1/2 of this is going to be breakfast, and half lunch.  Also, onion has more carbs than i thought.  wow.

Breakfast + Lunch:
243cal, 23 carbs

Snack:
1 mcdouble, plain, no bun (240cal, 5carbs)
1 meatball (unknown)
1 almond (unknown)

Dinner
5 jalapeno poppers - 360cal, 8 carbs
1 pork chop: 205cal, 0 carb

Drinkage:
Mint tea, add toranis SF chocolate - 0 cal, 0 carb
Coffee, add splenda & coffeemate - 20cal, 2 carb
diet coke - 0cal, 0 carb

Total:  1068cal, 38carbs

Breakfast: Nada.  Wasn't Hungry.

Lunch:
3 pieces BWW naked tenders - 129cal, 6 carbs
1/3 C cottage cheese - 75cal, 3 carbs

Snack: JITB Burger Deluxe, no bun- 181cal, 4 carbs

Snack 2: worlds smallest burger patty (1/8th lb) - 116cal, 0 carb

Dinner:
Arbys All-American Roastburger, no bun - 200cal, 9 carb

Drinkage:
cup of coffee.  splenda, coffee mate - 20cal, 2 carbs (all from the coffeemate)
water
cup of coffee.  Timothy's K-cup decaf w/ splenda, no creamer - 0cal, 0carb. :D
diet coke

Total:  721cal, 24carbs

Weight: 251.6

Yep, went up a bit.  not surprised after the amount of summer sausage I had yesterday.
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Breakfast:
Mcdonald's egg/sausage/cheese muffin - hold muffin & cheese - 265cal, 2 carbs

Lunch:
Sonic burger - no cheese, no bun - 316cal, 4 carbs

Snack:
String Cheese - 80cal, 1 carb

Dinner:
3 pieces BWW naked tenders - 129cal, 6 carbs (how the HELL do they manage THAT?)
BWW side salad, no dressing - 210cal, 16 carbs (HUH?)

OK, look...the naked tenders are GRILLED CHICKEN.  that's it.  no sauce.  where are those carbs coming from?  The salad is lettuce, tomato, cheese, and onion. ...ok, it had croutons but I took those off.  that's going to reduce both cal and carbs, but i'm not sure by how much.

Snack:
3 BWW boneless wings (yes, breaded.  I failed) - 264 cal, 9 carbs
this was a total fail.  i was watching tv. they were sitting on the table.  they smelled wonderful.

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Drinkage: water, SF NF Vanilla Latte (grande) - 130cal, 19carbs (holy shit, didn't think it was that high)
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Daily Total (more or less)
1394cal, 57carbs

OK, it's a little less, but still.

I'm having some carb fails here.  I need to think about this.

Weight: 250.6

 Breakfast:
JITB Breakfast Jack, bunless
JITB grilled chicken strip - just 1.

Lunch:
Celery
couple tablespoons of 5-layer dip
some summer sausage
few nuts

drinkage:
water, Grande SF NF Cinnamon Dolce Latte

I have never had cramps this bad on my monthly.  Ever.  Or so much blood.  OMG.  It's scary.

On Jason's advice, I did some research

Several sites have info, but these are the 2 best summations I found:
http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art17429.asp
http://livinlavidalocarb.blogspot.com/2006/02/does-low-carb-prolong-your-period.html

Basically, estrogen is stored in the fat cells.  Even more so for women w/ PCOS (which is me).  As you lose weight, estrogen is released, which effects the period.  Eventually, it's supposed to stabilize, but periods can be longer and heavier for a while.  In extreme cases, the bleeding seems to be able to last weeks.

OK, so now it's still annoying, but less scary.

It's Christmas!

Weight: 250.6
It went down again.  WOOHOO.  I discovered why it had stopped - it WAS water retention - I started my period and POOF.  weight go down.  Interesting.

Note: It's Christmas.  Diet was turned off for today.  It'll go back on tommorrow.

Breakfast: more of Ami's chili.  NomNomNom

Snack:
nuts (not sure how many - lots.  I snacked on and off all day.)
1 pumpkin mini muffin

Lunch/Dinner:
Chevys.I had a chille rellano, a bowl of corn chowder, half a plate of fajita nachos, and some chips and salsa.

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So, I TOTALLY went off the diet at dinner.  This was planned (ok, originally it was going to be a 0-carb turducken, but we discovered turducken sucks)  I'm glad I did it.  I could tell how much the LACK of carbs was helping me, but the sudden injection of them at dinner, and being able to WATCH the effect was really instructive.

I've spent the rest of the evening with a headache, slightly dizzy, slightly nauseous, and feeling kinda hungry.  Jason kept keeping an eye on me.  It's apparently obvious how much of a difference it made.

We went to the theater a few hours later.  Popcorn was not tempting.  The smell is usually SO enticing.  I didn't even care.  I had NO snacks.

Carbs are bad for me.  Tonight proved that. Diet is back on tommorrow morning.  I do not feel deprived by it. It's turning into more of a security blanket.  I just want the dizzy-sick to go AWAY.

Also, Chevy's doesn't do a good job of chille rellano.  Just saying. :)

Jason and I went shopping.  We looked at a few things.

1) Many things billed as 'low-carb' aren't.  They just have sugar alcohol that they subtract from the carbs and get a 'net carb' amount.  I need to find out if I can count that way.

2) BBQ sauce.  I was horrified to discover the BBQ sauce I have in the fridge has 18carbs/2tbsp.  So we looked @ BBQ sauce.

Best is Stubbs Spicy.  6carbs/2tbsp.  We'll get it later, after move complete.

3) Pickles.  I don't like dill pickles - I like sweet pickles.  Which makes pickles a not-so-good snack.  After poking around a bit, we found Bread & Butter pickles made with SPLENDA! I have 0 carb pickles now.  Yay!

Breakfast: Mcdouble, no bun

Lunch: homemade chili (made by Ami) - described as "at least 5 types of meat, at least 5 types of chilis, tomato, garlic, onion, and a bunch of spices"

Dinner: celery sticks, a little of 5 layer dip, (maybe 2 tbsp?), guac (homemade by Luke - avacado, lemon & lime zest, tomatillo, a couple handfulls of nuts.

Did not count calories.  I may have gone over a little, but I feel like I didn't.

Drinkage: Diet 7up, water, life water


Lifewater is dangerous.  I'm drinking the zero-cal stuff and that should be fine.  No, it's not.  One bottle of life water contains 20 carbs!!!!! and no calories.  I don't know HOW they did that, but they did.  It's most annoying.

Especially since I didn't notice the carb count til after I drank it! :(

This morning's weight: 253.8.  yep, i ate < 750cal yesterday and went up .5 lbs

I don't GET it. It's not like I did nothing.  I went home after work and packed...I walked back and forth from home and the office a few times.

*baffle*

I don't know what to think.  In the meantime, I'm just going to keep plodding along and hope for something to come out of this mess...

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Breakfast:
Veggie/Sausage Omelette. -700cal
veggies (50), 2 eggs (200), cheese (250, 1 sausage (200)

Lunch: 320cal
summer sausage (190cal), 1 slice cheese (100cal), 1 bell pepper (30)

Dinner:
Gyro Express Kid's Meal (traditional meat, feta salad w/ no cheese or dressing, diet coke) - unknown calories.  prolly about 150 on meat, maybe 30 on salad?

Drinkage:
water, coffee (splenda, coffee mate), SF NF Vanilla Latte, diet coke

Weight. 253.2

I'm mad.

I thought I'd been doing really well but it's slowing and STOPPING. I don't get it. I swear, I'd think I'd lose weight with what I've been eating. The whole things is depressing and discouraging. I'd like to know where I'm off.

I still FEEL better (go low-carb!) but I want to lose the weight, DAMNIT.

It's time to call in the calvary. I need my sister's advice.
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After talking to my sister I've got two things to think about.
1) It's a plateau. They happen. They're irritating. They go away.
2) I really need to calorie count. It'll help me see where I'm screwing up, if nothing else. I'm going to see if this blog will let me make a page to list standard counts of stuff I eat
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Breakfast:
2 eggs (over medium), 2 bacon - 300cal

Lunch:
Salad: 154cal
all this is approximate, of course.
3/4 cup spinach: 6, 1/4 cup cucumber: 4, 1 tbsp corn: 10, 1 tbsp peas: 10, 1/4 cup mushroom: 4, 1/2 cup bell pepper: 20, 1/3 cup cottage cheese: 75, 1/2 tbsp sunflower seeds: 25

No dressing. Very yummy.  MMM!

Dinner: 290cal
chicken breast (220cal) + 1 tbsp ranch. (70cal)

Drinkage:
diet 7up, water, diet coke

Weight this morning was 253.2. I've gone down, but not much. To be fair, I've had a couple of big-eating days lately. Time to be more careful!

Breakfast:
veggie & sausage scramble

Lunch:
chicken salad (1/2 can chicken, mayo, onion, bell pepper, spices)
5 grapes

I have a mouse. I'm contemplating eating it. Chocolate covered cherry, almond slices, and hershy's kiss. Cute but I'm sure it's carb-laden.

Update: coworker found mousie a home. I did not eat it. Go me?

I'm not giving up some of my favorite carb dishes. I will still eat spaghetti...i'll just pair it with salad and eat it rarely. ditto on pizza. and baked taters.

But I'd like to find a way to cut the carbs on this stuff anyway. Tonight, I tried a noodle type that's advertised as low carb. Shirataki Noodles. They only have 3 carbs a serving, so that was super awesome. I found some, not too spendy - 2 serving was $1.79. They're made out of tofu, which I've had before so I wasn't TOO concerned - it can be made pretty tasty.

It comes refrigerated, in liquid. The directions were to rinse well and then nuke for a minute.

The texture was very noodle-ish, I was happy with that. The smell, pre-cooking, smelled like a bad day at the coast. Like fish. Not happy 'I have fish and chips' smell but the 'oh my god do they ever clean the fish counter?' smell. TERRIBLE. However, the warnings I'd seen online, and on the package, said that the smell WAS offputting untill it was cooked.

So I rinsed the HELL out of it. And then rinsed it some more, to be safe. Then nuked it.

Yes, the smell is offputting until it's cooked. THEN it's nauseating. They leave that part out. It's...rancid doesn't begin to explain it. I can't explain it. It made the smell beforehand smell good.

I didn't taste it. I wasted a zippy bag to seal that smell inside and tossed it away. UGH.

Experiment 1: failure

Breakfast:
1 egg, over medium.
1 sausage patty
couple bites of Jason's meat omelette

Lunch:
salad. spinach leaves, cucumber, celery, corn, peas, carrots, cheese, cottage cheese, raisins, sunflower seeds, onion, bell pepper.

note the lack of dressing? The cafe was OUT of chipotle ranch, and the ranch they had on the bar had seperated. Eww.
They had this cucumber-dill-yogurt stuff I thought might work, but I didn't like it. So I just ate my salad sans dressing.

Snack:
JitB Deluxe Hamburger, bunless

Dinner:
Chicken Mix (1/2 can of chicken, bell pepper, onion, cheddar, sour cream)

Snack:
some summer sausage, cheddar, and a couple handfulls of nuts.

Drinkage:
water
coffee (splenda, powdered creamer)
diet coke

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ate more than I have lately today. I just got the munchies this evening. I'll have to watch that....I don't want it to be a habit. I still kept it low-carb, but keep an eye on it.

Weight this morning: 253.6

Breakfast: JitB grilled chicken strips. I had ranch, but I used less than 1/4 of one container. Go me!

Then we went to a movie (TRON). Now, I cannot go to a movie without having a snack. I feel incredibly deprived and will be irritiable the whole movie long. This is bad. HOWEVER, my theater is supere awesome, and they have what they call 'fresh packs' - apples, celery, carrots, and ranch. I split one of those with Jason.

They also have a nut/raisin/pretzel package I may use in the future, let jason have all the pretzels (no temptation there, i detest them), and share the raisins and nuts.

Snack: Freshpack @ Bridgeport theater

Lunch: Fuddruckers Burger mmm! I WON MY BURGER!!!
It was composed of:
burger (1/2 lb patty), bacon, grilled onions, grilled mushrooms, pepper jack, lettuce, tomato, onion, cheese sauce, mayo, and bbq.

It was super yummy, pretty low carb. I did NOT have a bun. I did eat ONE of jason's french fries. JUST ONE. go me.

Dinner:
grilled asparagus (left over from my Sat dinner) & grilled veggies (from Jason's Sat dinner).

Drinkage:
diet coke
water
gingerbread tea (w/ splenda)

Weight this morning was 255. WOOHOO!!!!!

Breakfast:
3 eggs, some ham, some cheese

Breakfast was big, but I ate around 9, and it has to last me til around 3, which is when we're having dinner w/ Jason's parents.

I'm fairly sure I'll eat a lot @ dinner (filet mignon, grilled veggies, parmesan zucchini is the plan - and give my garlic toast away), so I'm skipping lunch. I thought about trying to eat less at dinner and have lunch, but I know I'm NOT going to be able to resist. So my meal is pre-planned to eliminate as many carbs as possible and I'm just planning to ALLOW myself to eat.

...That pretty much worked.

Lunch/Dinner:
Filet Mignon, Grilled Asparagus (the zucchini was batter dipped but i couldn't tell til i GOT there, so I switched up), grilled veggies (squash).
I also tried some fire-roasted artichoke as an appetizer. Yick. And I had a nibble of ribeye. And one macaroni noodle (to verify it was as horrible as the nephews claimed - it was!)

Drinkage:
water
diet coke
NF, SF Raspberry Latte.

One thing we're looking at is that my sugars are now dropping TOO low. In the evenings I get very...moody, all a sudden. I can't pinpoint why, but last night it got so bad I was CRYING.

We're going to finish the week's experiment out...but we may have to add a little more carb back in and see how it affects my mood.

*sigh* I hate this balancing act. It's a nightmare.

Started day with one cough drop. Feel like crap. We were out of sugar-free but I didn't have much choice. Note: Purchase SF cough drops.

Breakfast:
Sausage/Pepper/Onion Omelette. Ate the whole thing cause I was SUPER hungry this morning.
also had sip of the gravy to try it

Lunch:
Salad - lots of lettuce some ham, some cheese. chipotle ranch dressing (used dunk fork then spear method)

Dinner:
2 eggs, over medium (MMMM)
some ham

Drinkage:
diet coke
coffee (splenda, 2% milk - cafe was out of fat free)
SF, NF Strawberry Latte
Water

weight this morning was 257. I smiled.

Breakfast:
Lettuce wrapped BLT. 3 pieces bacon, one leaf o lettuce (Romaine), and 1 tomato slice. add sour cream, roll. EAT. OMG NOM. I think I want it for lunch too!

Today is going to be a lot about planning for failure. I didn't have time to make a lunch this morning, the entire lunch menu is carb-laden, there's a get-together after work which will likely have carby-munchies...and I forgot my nuts. Today will be tough. But I will do it.

Because I don't want to pass out into diabetic coma for the rest of my life, damnit.

Lunch:
Lettuce wrapped BLT. 3 pieces bacon, one leaf o lettuce (Romaine), and 2 tomato slices. add mayo

Snack:
Wendys Jr Bacon Cheeseburger, Plain (Burger, cheese, bacon)
this was so i didn't snack on carb-laden stuff @ company get together since I couldn't go home and eat first.

Dinner:
pork chop. 1 piece ham & cheese.

Drinkage:
Diet coke
pumpkin spice tea, with splenda
Morgan's not-tang orange energy drink.

OK, so the orange stuff. I haven't got a bloody clue what this stuff IS. it's supposedly sugar free, calorie free, orange flavored energy drink POWDER. he bought it in Europe somewhere. He stores it at his desk (Morgan's my manager) and it helps out when you feel like crap. Which I do today (i want my sudafed script refilled!!!!). So I asked him and he let me have some.

right now, i detest salad. I've just had too much of it, and with the limited dressing it's kinda BLEH. So I got inspiration for other ideas from my sister.

• blt with lettuce instead of bread - this sounds so yummy i want it NOW.
• zucchini peppers & onions sauteed up.
• 'cole slaw' w/ homemade dressing. actually, homemade dressing may be a way to get yummy low-cal ranch that i am not fork-dipping. and cole slaw, using cabbage instead of lettuce, gives me some variety
• chicken salad. she suggested tuna salad, but i don't eat tuna.
• hard boiled eggs. oh yeah.
• cheese crisps. basically, take shredded/grated cheese, put on baking sheet, stick in oven. apparently makes crispy cheese snacks.
• Lunch meat rollups - booyah baby.
• mushrooms and onions mix.
• green beans, onion, soysauce. yummy!
• hummus. not a big fan, but maybe i could try a flavored one, use it for dunking instead of ranch?

Breakfast:
1/2 meat omelette

Lunch:
salad (lots and lots of lettuce mix (like 3 cups), one slice ham

Snack:
1 mcdouble, dry, no bun.

We were going to go to costco to get a few things. Costco has samples. LOTS of yummy samples. That are high carb. Jason didn't want me to end up eating cake, so he planned for failure and got me meat first. MMMM.

Costco samples: 1 lil piece of cheese. and 1 sample of french onion soup, with no bread in it. We did not purchase because unlike my sample, the actual soup has bready stuff. bleh.

And see? I was good. No carby things! At costco we got chicken, and pork chops, and hot dogs, and eggs. YAY low carbs!!!

Dinner:
finished off the KFC cole slaw. Pork chops didn't happen, mostly cause I just wasn't that HUNGRY.

Drinkage:
water
coffee (made w/ splenda & fat-free milk)
diet coke

My weight this morning was 259.0 I'm under 260. WOOHOO!!!!

Breakfast:
veggie omelette. Note to self: in future, share omelette w/ Jason. SOOOOO FULL.

Lunch:
taco salad. Involved chicken, lettuce, salsa, olive (just a little), cheese, chipotle ranch dressing. Took up about a 3rd of a plate, so small too! I was dumb and talking while making it tho and put dressing on the way I'm used to. Argh!

Dinner plans have changed - a friend gave us a 2 quarts of spicy chili. no beans, minimal tomatoes, so both Jason and I can eat it! Dinner will be chili and salad.

Then Dinner plans changed again. Jason forgot the chili. And he didn't want to go shopping so I didn't have pork chops available. So I had salad for dinner.

Dinner:
Salad. lettuce (prolly 3-4 cups. I had a ton)
1 slice of ham, all cubed up
Ranch (and i remembered to do the fork dunk thing. WOOT. I used less than 1/2 a tablespoon of ranch for my giant salad. Twas awesome. I still get the ranch flavor, but the texture is more crunchy. I'm undecided whether I like it

Drinkage:
Diet coke

So, I had that piece of candy last night to fill the craving. This morning, I was checking it out.

What I ate

And the Nutrition Facts

2 pieces have 120 calories, so I had about 45cal. I also had roughly 7 carbs in that piece of candy.

That seemed high, so I did some other research. There isn't a direct non-SF version of this candy, so I had to go with something close

Here's my comparison

And the Nutrition Facts

It seems close, same size candys, similiar makeup - chocolate with stuff in the middle. The SF is 2 pieces a serving, the standard is 3. So to make this simple, i'm going to convert to 1 piece

Sugar free: 60cal, ~10carbs
Standard: ~64rcal, ~8carbs

Yeah. Standard candy isn't that different. Hell, according to this, I'd be better off eating regular candy.

*boggle*

I have heard back on where we're eating lunch at Saturday.

Claim Jumper

Well, hmm. They've got lots of HIGH-carb options. ALL of their soups have extra carbs (even the simple veggie soup has rice!)

I have salad options, but I'm eating salad all week! By saturday, I'll be sick of salad.

So, after much discussion with Jason, my plan is:

Filet Mignon, with Parmesan-crusted Zucchini, roasted veggies and garlic toast.
I'll give the garlic toast to someone else.

Today I've had:

Breakfast:
1 sausage patty, couple bites of egg w/ cheese

Lunch:
1 piece KFC grilled chicken, some cole slaw

Dinner:
1 piece KFC grilled chicken, some cole slaw

Drinkage:
mint tea w/ toranis SF chocolate
SF, NF carmel latte
Diet coke
1/2 diet 7up, mixed w/ toranis SF chocolate & SF creme de menthe
water

Snack:
3/4 piece SF Russel Stover Chocolate - Raspberry Souffle

As of this morning, my weight is 263.6. A week ago, it was 268 and change, so I'm not too upset.

Last night, we went to a work party. I was watching all the cute girls bouncing around in their skinny little dresses, and I was upset. Last night, I cried myself to sleep. Today, I was depressed most of the day.

Tonight, I have a new plan. It involves breaking down the issue to the base problem and tackling it. And it involves help, and rewards. I like the plan.

Issue: I want to lose weight
Obstacle: Carb issues. See, my blood sugars are a nightmare to control. I get hungry, I eat something. My body reacts to carbs by spiking up and then CRASHING low. They get low and I have to eat something. This doesn't help with weight loss at all. The medication they COULD put me on also acts as an appetite suppressant. Which means I don't eat as much, and then the blood sugar doesn't spike, the meds aren't needed and my body over reacts to meds + proper diet and again I'm in trouble.

In short:
meds + diet = blood sugar issues
meds alone = good
diet alone = good
no diet, no meds = blood sugar issues

And since meds alone haven't worked previously, I'm obviously going to have to go by diet alone. Which I've been trying for a while, and it's not working well at all. My body does not process carbs right.

Solution? Kill the carbs.

Now, some carbs are necessary for life, obviously. And I don't want to go overboard. So, after breaking down completely, and sobbing while Jason hugged me, we have a plan. :)

1) Remove obvious carbs. This means no: bread, crackers, chips, rice, pasta, potatoes (!), breading (like on fried chicken or fish sticks or jalapeno poppers). It also means cutting out obvious sugars (like in ice cream and cake and cookies and candy and marshamllows and chocolate sauce).
2) Ignoring incidental carbs. I'm not going to go overboard. Yes, there are some carbs in milk. Sure, green beans and spagetti sauce have some. So what? The amount is minor enough that I'm not going to worry about it.
3) Lots of meat and veggies in reasonable portions. No, instead of steak and potato i'm having 2 steaks. More like I shall have the steak, and some low-carb veggies.
4) Limit (without cutting out) high-carb veggies and fruit. I'm being careful with corn, carrots, and peas. Ditto with juice and fruit and such. But I'll have it...in LIMITED quantities.
5) I'll be eating lots of salads i suspect. And things that like dunking. So I need to be careful with Ranch. So, I'm going to switch to the 'dunk the fork in the ranch, then get the food' method, to avoid going overboard.

Jason's doing all this with me. It'll be awesome to have some help and support. Also, If I can do this through Saturday, on Sunday, he's taking me to fuddruckers. They have super-awesome burgers. :D I can smell them now!

Today, I ate:
Burger King Side Salad. Using dunky method in ranch. No idea how much ranch, very very little though, comparatively. It looked like I hadn't eaten any. (AWESOME) Piece of KFC grilled chicken. about 1/3 Cup of KFC cole slaw. 6 A&W mini corn dogs (last carbs, been craving them for a week, Jason surprised me with them, and they were REALLY yummy. They also don't count towards my 'being good through Sat)

Now, for the rest of the week we have a plan!
I'm skipping breakfast (or having some sausage or bacon, if needed)

Monday:
Lunch: Chicken, cole slaw
Dinner: Chicken, cole slaw

Tuesday:
Lunch: taco bar at work (lettuce instead of tortilla, skip rice & beans)
Dinner: pork chops & salad

Wednesday:
Lunch: salad
Dinner: salad

Thursday:
Lunch: salad
Dinner: hamburger patties & salad (or green beans, if we're out of salad mix)

Friday:
Lunch: salad...or ham and green beans, or some soup
Dinner: bacon & eggs

Saturday, Jason's parents are visiting and we're doing christmas and going out to lunch. Don't know where we're going to plan around it, but Jason's promised we'll find something where I can avoid carbs.

This shall be GOOD!

Trying to be really good today. So far, so good:

Breakfast: 160cal
1 apple (100cal)
16oz of lite cranberry juice (60cal)

Also, I made Jason breakfast. He got an apple too.

Lunch:
summer sausage, 4 slices thin (no clue)
cheddar cheese, 4 small slices (100cal)
some carrots (about 10 baby carrots)
some grapes (about 15)

Jason also got lunch. He got about 20 baby carrots, 2 hard boiled eggs, and about 15 grapes

I'm still working on my juice.

I think milk is turning into a crutch for me. I don't know if this is good or bad.

I tend to have cereal for breakfast at work right now. With fat free milk.

On lunch I've been getting coffee. To be specific, sf, nf, decaf mochas. with fat free milk. Sometimes I have creamosas instead. w/ fat free milk. Neither of these are particularly BAD for me...the only calories really come from the milk.

but i'm getting a lot of milk. and milk's not free. it's better than some stuff, but still has calories. Is this good, or bad?

Also...for breakfast today, i had 2 susage links and about 2 tbsp of gravy. not milk, but yum.

That's ok, i made up for it at lunch. i had both my mocha AND my creamosa. at least I left off the whip.

:depressed about milk:

10:00 am - yogurt - 110cal
boston cream pie yoplait light. om nom NOM.

12:15 - mashed taters - 90cal
single serving of KFC mashed taters. I wanted warm comfort food. I haz it. :D

3:30 pm - arbys jr roast beef, sans bun - 180cal
so the jr roast beef is 300cal. a standard hamburger bun is 120cal. so i figure that's what's left

4:00 pm - sugar free caramel italian soda - 0cal (hee)

7pm - dinner - 470
1 C HH (330cal)
1/2 C corn (80cal)
1 berry munch GS cookie (60cal)

Daily Total: 850cal

the last few days I've sucked quite a bit.

In fact, my weekly weigh in puts me at 253.8. I've gone UP. Bad me. :(

So trying to be better.

9:00 - yogurt - 100cal
had the red velvet yoplait light. Not all that. It tasted OK, but not awesome.

12:30 - mexisoup - 96cal
sauteed: onion (44cal), 2 bell peppers (66cal), and 1/2 a cucumber (22cal)
added in a can of chicken broth (20cal), some garlic (free), some taco seasoning (free).
added in some salsa (20cal) and some bean dip (70cal)
added water to make soup.
my whole pot is 242 calories
I portioned it out into quarters - about 2 cups/portion - so each portion is roughly 60.5 calories. i'm going to count the first two i eat as 61 and the last two as 60, just for rounding.
To my two cups of soup i added 1/4 C cottage cheese (fat free). that's 35cal. total is 96. I went with cottage cheese cause i was contemplating adding either cheese or sour cream. This feels like a combination. Plus, it's in the house.

I'm seriously proud of myself for going back on the diet when I don't HAVE to. Also, I'm pleased because I used up stuff that needed to be used: cottage cheese, bean dip, cucumber, bell pepper, and onion, were all going to be approaching expiration shortly. There's still some cottage cheese and some bean dip, but it was USEFUL.

I don't want to be on as strict a diet as I was. I don't believe it's long-term healthy, and as of now, there's no real need to be. So I'm going to change the daily calorie intake to approx 800. That's the goal.

Dinner's always hard for me, and I tend to overeat, so I'm limiting my earlier intake a LOT to adjust for it.

Opinions?

3pm - snack - apple slices (35cal)

4:30 pm - pizza - 740cal
I had two slices of pizza. I assumed, like most pizza, they'd be 300cal each. WRONG. 370. Ouch.

Then I got depressed about being over my calorie limit. And about not working. And about not being able to control pain. And about being physically limited. And I cried.

And I ate some ice cream.

Then I was over sugared and loopy from THAT, so I had some ham.

I have no idea where I ended up.

Took the weekend off the diet again. It was a nice change. And apparently boosts my metabolism so during the week I lose the maximum. Neat trick.

9:30am - soup - 140cal

12:10 - tater - 175cal
i took one red potato, golf ball size (100cal?)
i nukerwaved it
i buttered it (1 tbsp at 50cal)
then i cooked up some mushrooms in water, added garlic & a bit of worchestshire for flavor. 25cal
PILED the mushrooms upon the tater and ATE it. mmm!

2:00 - coffee - 10cal
i made my usual 20cal mocha. I also learned something, causing me to only drink half of it.
Don't stir your mocha with the same spoon you used earlier to add garlic to mushrooms.
The end.

5:20 pm - sammich -335cal
1 piece of bread (110cal)
1 tbsp mayo (100cal)
3 slices ham (45cal?)
1 piece cheese (80cal)

Daily Total: 660.

before you think that's high - i got taken OFF the starvation diet. I'm still needing to lose weight, but omg-lose-now-surgery-imminent alert is GONE.

WOOT

The HARDEST thing for me to work around is the weekends. This one's no exception. I have plans!

Tonight: After PT, I need to grab food, then go to the gaming store for some D&D.

Saturday: Have a meeting to plan for Orycon (Sci-fi/fantasty con in November). Takes place at Round Table (Pizza Buffet joint). We need to all buy meals as a thank you for using the space.

Sunday: Have a meeting to plan for Gamestorm (Gaming Con in March). Takes place at Burger King. Again, need to buy food. Immediately after, have to go back to the gaming store to help Jason run some Game demos.

See? Busy! And everything happens around meal times! Jeepers.

So, plan it out ahead of time, right? OK, tonight, we have the time to stop and EAT, so we're going to AppleBees. They have a selection of 550cal meals. I'll be over my desired cal count for the day, but I'll still be in the 'weight loss' category. Plus, I'm going to drink LOTS of water today, and see if I can manage only HALF of my meal. Save the other half for another day.

Tommorrow, there's not much I can do. It's a pizza buffet. Not a lot of options. There IS a salad bar that comes with it, so I'm going to try to fill up on that. But I know pizza is my weakness. Luckily, it's mid-day. I'm going to TRY to cut tmw down to just one meal.

Sunday, I'm going to try and stick to coffee at the BK. They have decaf, and I can 0-cal it easily enough. That leaves me with the problem of food. I may go home after BK instead of the demos, depending on pain level, so I need TWO options - one for there, and one for home. I'm thinking about bringing my left over applebees in the car, and eating it between meetings - or right b4 BK.

So, I have plans. Not hard and fast rules, but plans. I know I'm going to go over, I'm just trying to manage by how MUCH.

Note: also going to review the BK menu for some low-cal options in case my applebees doesn't survive til sunday.

Hunger Happens.

10:45 am: veggies & bacon - 110cal
1 piece of bacon - 50cal
crumbled up and mixed in w/ my grilled veggies (60cal)

bacon's not much food for the calories - but it's so tasty it's worth it.

3:15pm - 92cal
1 medium sonic diet cherry limeade (10cal)
1 cheddar pepper (330 for 4, so 82cal)

5:30pm - applebees - 550cal
I ate teh whole thing, but DAMN was it good. I had the asiago steak. MMMM.

Daily Total: 752cal

12:00 - yogurt - 110cal
I had a pineapple upside down cake yoplait light yogurt. I love this line of yogurt. MMMMM.

2:00pm - veggies - 95cal
So, I sauteed me up some veggies:
1/2 cuke (45 per 1) - 23cal
1 bell pepper - 33 cal
1 onion - 40 cal
1/2 my mushrooms - 25cal
That totals 121cal. I took half of it: 60cal
then i added in 1/4 C of fat-free cottage cheese (35cal)
mix it up and YUM.

6:00 - HH/salad - 156cal
so, i made hamburger helper. The flavor I made says it's 310 cal / C, but i don't make it by pkg directions. So I did some math.
What's in the box is 5 servings of 120 each. that's 600cal
I added 1 lb of meat, and i did the drain & rinse thing, so that's 155cal/quarter lb, or 620cal
i also used 1 3/4 C milk, using fat-free at 80 cal/cup, so that's 140cal
the entire dish is 1360 cal.
That makes 5 servings of 1 C each
so, a cup of *my* HH is 272cal. I didn't shave off much, but I did some.
My serving is a 1/2 Cup, just to be safe (and leave room for food later if I want it!) - 136cal
Now, because HH is tasty but not very bulky, i added on a simple side salad. 1 C of lettuce (8cal)
and some spray ranch (12cal)

Daily Total: 361cal

11:00 - egg & salad. - 88cal
I wanted that herby spinachy flavor you get in some omelettes/fritattas. I had no spinach, so I kinda...made this up as i went.

I wouldn't do it again, for the record. It's not all that.
Fried an egg, over-medium (80cal)
took 1 C of my salad mix, and heated it up on the grill just a BIT (8cal)
put egg on top of salad mix, broke yolk, tossed.

Meh.

12:00 - MOCHA - 20cal
took 1 C of coffee (0cal)
added 2 tbsp of splenda (0cal)
added 1/4 C of fat free milk at 80cal/8oz, where 8oz appears to equal a cup, so (20 cal)
1 tbsp of sugar-free torani's choc syrup (0cal)
ice to fill glass.
this is SUCH a treat for me. and low calorie too!

3pm - ham - 30 cal
i had 2 slices of ham. I have no idea what the calorie count is, but based on what my turkey was, i'm assuming it's about 30cal.

6:30 pm - soup - 140cal
i had 1/2 a can of campbells chicken & sausage gumbo soup. mmm.

8:00 pm - popcorn! - 100cal

10:20pm - tea. with splend 0 cal, but getting a mention cause i'm HAPPY.

Daily Total: 378cal

The way I've ate the last few days I was tempted to 'forget' this...but I didn't. And I'm glad.

Me on 2/17/2010
Wearing these clothes, per the bathroom scale, I am 251.4lbs.

Another 3 lbs, bringing the total to 7. Yay!

Starting over is hard. But I'm doing it.
Rather than trying to remember what i've eaten, we're just going to start over.

Breakfast: 1 egg - 80cal
I got an over-medium egg. I finally got it cooked right! well, it's a little over done, but i'm still very happy. YAY!

Lunch - salad - 68cal
2 tbsp bean dip - 35cal
heat it up & mix in
1 tbsp lite ranch - 20cal
1 tbsp salsa - 5cal
add 1 c salad mix (8cal)
toss

Dinner - not counting this.
a burgerville yukon & bean basil burger
1/2 order of burgerville waffle fries.
some ham.
an entire box of mac and cheese.

I got HUNGRY. and I ATE....and ate....and ate....

10:30 - arbys - 150cal
arbys jr chicken sandwich
just the patty - no sauce, no lettuce, no bread.
their site doesn't list nutritional data, but i found an online estmiate at 250cal. I skipped the sauce and the bread (and the lettuce, but who cares) so i'm going to assume that's at least 100 off.

12:00 - Baskin Robbins - 320cal
1 scoop apple pie a la mode ice cream. w/ whipped cream on top.
i'm assuming a 4oz scoop, i'm not really sure. that's 270 per their website.
i don't know what their whipped cream is but i had less than 1/4 C, and i found something online stating that whipped cream's about 150/cup (wow! i had no idea it was that high, i eat whipped cream all the freaking time. I love it. going to have to look into the sugar free varieties!). I figure B&R probably adds extra sugar, so assuming 50.

11:00 - veggies & egg -161 cal
1 veggie 'pack' - 66cal
1 egg - 80cal
1 tbsp ketchup - 15cal

2:00 - veggies - 106cal
1 veggie pack - 66cal
small amount of pepperjack - 20cal
1 tbsp light ranch - 20cal

6:00 - taco bell - 915cal
1 soft taco supreme 240cal
1 burrito supreme 420cal
1/2 steak quesadilla. (510/2) 255cal

SO FULL. also...calorie overload. ugh. i felt so sick.

daily total:1182
*cringe* yet, the amusing part of this is, were I on a STANDARD diet, not a crash diet....i'd have been within limits. even pigging out. wow.

6am - hot dog - 180 calories
morning food for pain pill. Whee? Now I have to be extra careful all day. Also, am i the only one that nukes a hot dog, then wipes it off with a paper towel? I never noticed how greasy they are before! Even after I did that, it turned my tummy when I ate it. UGH!

1pm - veggie mix - 66cal
I chopped up and mixed:
1 onion - 44 cal
1 bell pepper - 33 cal
the rest of my mushrooms - 37 cal
a red potato - 150cal
assorted spices.
that totals 264 calories
I divided it into 4ths and put the other 3/4s in 3 seperate lil containers. there we go. Pre-made 'meals' (or starts to them) of 66cal each

6pm - veggie wrap -251cal
1 of my veggie mixes (66cal)
a very teensy amount of cheese (20cal)
2 tbsp sour cream (60cal)
1/2 a tortilla (105cal)

daily total: 497 cal

So...I did okay, but i was REALLY disappointed with dinner. I wanted (omg wanted) a taco. This...not a taco. It tried, but...failed. boom. crash. Not. A. Taco. and no olives. OMG i want olives. The tortilla crumbled. It was not a happy wrap. I'd have been much happier setting aside the tortilla, using half the sour cream, and having something else. bleh.

4am - cereal - 60 cal
woke up in pain. UGH. needed food to take a pill, so cereal it was.

1pm - salad - 71 cal
2 cups of salad mix (15cal), my left over veggie bits (26cal), and dressing
dressing is 1 tsp vinegar (0cal), 1 tbsp sour cream (30cal), and some taco seasoning (0cal)

4pm - coffee - 250cal
jason brought me home a drink. A venti starbucks. omg. yum! it's a venti carmel mocha. the carmel syrup is sugar free and the milk in it is fat-free. and no whip. I looked it up on their website. Yowza. but SOOOOO good.

7pm - egg - 80cal
I had some mushroom and onion in the egg. Jason took over making it for me though, before I could measure out, and didn't put in enough for me to even guess at a calorie count. So when i use up the rest of my onion and mushroom, i'll just count them as not having any removed.

Daily Total - 461

Me on 2/10/2010
Wearing these clothes, per the bathroom scale, I am 254.4lbs

4 lb loss. You can already see a small difference. Look at the cheeks.

5:30am - cereal - 60cal
I woke up in OH MY GOD PAIN. I just wanted food so I could take a pill
1/4 cup cereal (110 for 3/4 a cup so 37)
1/4 cup milk (90 for 1 cup so 23)

1pm - potato -179cal
I nukerwaved my red potato (150cal)
I took half of my left over fajita veggie mix and put it on top. (26cal)
I drizzled 1 tbsp of sour cream over that (30cal)
I was originally going to use butter instead of sour cream, but it turns out butter's 50cal for 1 tbsp and my sour cream is 60 for 2. So sour cream it was.
Lunch was a bit high, but tasty. And I'm still OK for the day

6pm - 3oz pork steak - 141cal
47cal an oz

Daily Total: 380cal

11:35 - 'fajita' veggies - 61cal
1 small-medium onion (44cal), half a large bell pepper ( 1/2 * 33 = 17cal), 1tsp taco seasoning (0cal), 1/4 C water (0cal)

This is REALLY yummy. I was going to go with 1 onion & 1 pepper but the onion was so small 1/2 a pepper worked out better.

4:30 - salad - 216 cal
2 cups of lettuce (15cal), 1/2 chicken breast (110cal), 1/4 onion, if that (11cal), sprinkling of cheese (i estimate just under 1/8th of a string cheese in size, and those are 80cal, so 10cal) 1tbsp sour cream (30cal), 2 tbsp light ranch (40cal) - i found out my salsa had gone bad!!!!!

7:00 - taco salad - 106cal
I was hungry. All sorts of food options ran through my head. I almost grabbed my go-to snack...100calorie bag o popcorn. Instead, I cooked, and used up my leftover onion & bell pepper
2/3 onion - 44cal for a full one, so 29cal
the other 1/2 of my bell pepper - 16cal
1/4 of my box of mushrooms (2.5 servings in the box, 20cal a serving, so 50 cal for the box) - 13cal
i sauteed those with a bit of taco seasoning, deglazing with water.
Then, I took 2 slices of turkey (using up leftovers!), sliced it up and tossed it in too - 45cal
my dish was 103calories

I took 2 cups of lettuce (15cal)
and drizzled 2 tbsp of light ranch (40cal) - i REALLY want to mix sour cream & salsa for this. it'd be WAY better. sadly, my salsa turned FUZZY. :( i wonder what sour cream plus vinegar plus taco seasoning does? hmm..an experiment for tmw, perhaps

Then, I took HALF my fajita veggie mix and piled on top. Ta da! And I have 52 calories of veggies to use later or tommorrow for a snack! WOOHOO!

Daily Total: 383 calories

Yes, I have 383 calories, and have had ranch, sour cream, cheese, and chicken, all in the same day. BOOYAH!

7:30 am - cereal - 191cal
I hadn't intended on this much, but Jason made my bowl of cereal and handed it to me before I could protest.
1 C cereal (3/4 cup is 110, so 147) & 1/2 C milk (45cal)

9:30 am - burgerville breakfast sandwich -480cal
I knew it was a mistake. But it sounded wonderful. It smelled better. It tasted lovely. Will Power Roll FAILED. I didn't realize it was THAT high in cal. Well, no food til dinner. at all.

3:30pm - leftover soup - 75cal
so much for that. needed pill, which requires food. grumble.

Total: 746cal

11:00am - egg & bacon - 130cal
1 egg at 80cal and one piece of bacon @ 50cal.

2:30 pm - half an egg roll - 90 cal
i needed to take a pill for pain, which requires food. So I split an egg roll with jason.

6:30 pm - soup and salad - 233 cal
the salad was 1 cup of lettuce (7.5cal), 2 tbsp salsa (10cal), and 1 tbsp sour cream (30cal), totalling 48ish calories. I threw some worchestshire pepper on it too - 0 cal.
the soup was a can of chicken broth (20cal), a can 0f mushrooms (60cal) and a can of green beans (70cal). That comes out to 150calories. I used half of it, so 75cal.
I also added half a chicken breast to my soup, so another 110calories, bringing me to 185 cal.

Daily Total: 453calories

AND I have pre-made soup for tommorrow! woot!

Today started early for me - well, on 'not working' time. It would have been sleeping in on 'working' time. At any rate.

Physical Therapy - 7:30 in the morning. I slept like crap last night. Fell asleep around 1am (mind you, i was in bed by 10). woke up at 3:30. Fell back asleep around 4. Alarm goes off @ 5:30. Groan. Jason left house at 6, and I fell asleep again shortly thereafter, and got up at 6:40.

Not hungry though, which surprised me. Thirsty. Oh My God thirsty! I drank an entire glass of water (20 oz) before my appointment.

Physical Therapy was, as usual, painful. However, there is a cheer. I made it all the way from the PT exam room to the front of the building without needing my cane. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! First time I've walked without it (except little bits in the house) since the year started. I was super-happy with that. I have new exercises I have to do too. Whee.

After PT my plan was to come home, have a bowl of cereal, take tram. However, such was not to be. See, there's a McDonalds between PT and home. Like, practically in the same parking lot as PT. And as we're pulling out Jason nods to it and says 'wanna sandwich? or going to go home, eat cereal, and be good?' I hesitated. Yummy, fatty, salty, tasty badness...or cereal. Then, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and said 'cereal.' Jason laughed at how long it had taken me to respond and took me to mcdonalds.

I love this guy. He knows what I want, even when I try not to want it. Sadly, this left me staring at the MCD breakfast menu trying to determine what would work best for my diet. I had a (very very very yummy) sausage burrito off their value menu. I looked it up. 300cal. So we'll have to be VERY careful today. Yes indeedy.

8:30 am - MCD sausage burrito - 300cal

I was very very careful afterwards. There was serious discussion of pizza for dinner, which I managed (narrowly) to avoid. I skipped lunch to try to compensate.

6pm: salad - 160cal
2 cups lettuce mix (15cal), 1/2 burger patty (w/ sister's help, calculated 1/2 patty at 125cal), 4 tbsp salsa (20cal)

7pm: popcorn - 50cal
A bit later, watching tv, i wanted a snack. I felt the need for something salty. I split a 100cal bag of popcorn with my friend who's visiting this evening.

Total: 510 calories

I woke up with the same headache I went to bed with at 6am. UGH. I did my usual call-in to work, used the bathroom, and then went back to sleep.

I woke up at 9:30 with the same god-awful headache. However, I also noticed the clouds had come in and the temperature had dropped outside. Weather changes, says I! Pressure changes, say I! Sneeze, said my nose. I took some sudafed (fake over-the-counter sudafed, but that's what i had). And a couple ibuprofen for good measure.

Here we are, two hours later, with headache all but gone! So I don't think headache was caused by lack of food but rather by the weather going wonky on me. I get headaches when it does that, but I didn't notice the changes last night.

The dizzy spell was still lack of food. I have to be CAREFUL. Ugh.

However, in what I'm assuming is a show of support and thanks, my back hurts less today than it has in WEEKS. I've done a load of laundry and loaded the dishwasher - without tramadol! Now, it's possible the Ibu is responsible for part of that, and I do feel SOME pain, so I'm not all better. But I'll take it.

10am - 1/2 can of soup (finished off that minestrone) - 100cal

I've decided upon a challenge. I need to create a 100cal grilled cheese sandwich. mmmmm.

1:30pm - 1/2 chicken breast - 110cal

right on target for lunch. Yeah! Back started hurting about then too. bugger.

4:30 pm - cheese - 80cal.

Jason handed it to me. He said we needed to eat it before it went bad. I ate it. It was a hunk of cheddar, about the same amount as is in a string cheese. so 80cal.

5:00pm - salad - 95cal
2 cups of lettuce at 15cal, 5tbsp of salsa at 10cal/2tbsp = 25cal, and 2 slices of turkey lunch meat. I have no idea how many calories in a slice. the package indicates 1/6th of the package is 90cal. there are at LEAST 24 slices in there. so we're going to assume 2 slices was 45cal.

5:30pm - cereal - 96cal
1/2 cup of cereal. 3/4 = 110cal, so 73cal. plus 1/4 cup of milk (fat-free). 1 cup is 90, so 23ish.

I got HUNGRY tonight. Wow. Tummy hurts. I hate crash diets. I really do. Stupid surgery. :(

8:49 pm - cereal 60cal
1/4 cup of cereal (37 cal) plus 1/4 cup of milk (23)
not all that hungry, but hurt, and need food for pill. Stupid back.

Total: 551 calories.

It occurs to me there should be some basic rules about weight loss. Or dieting. Or whatever you want to call it. So I'm going to try to list some. These can be adjusted, edited, killed, added to, whatever. Just sort of thinking out loud here.

Do it now.
How many times have I thought "Yeah, I should do that...I'll start tommorrow." Whatever it is - cutting out the fast food, weighing yourself, going for a walk...just do it now.

Admit it.
It's never easy to admit faults. Ever. Especially with weight. But admitting it helps. Whether you're looking in the mirror saying, "Ok, I am NOT a size 16 anymore." or looking at the fridge saying "I really have a weakness for ice cream." Case in point - I admitted that I had a weight problem and was trying to fix it to my friends before a game session. They didn't laugh at me or judge me. They brought veggies instead of chips. This applys to everything. Write down everything you eat, if you're keeping a food journal. Sure, it was one cookie. Still, admit it.

Fill The Void.
You're eating less. You're going to feel like something's missing. This is perfectly NORMAL for a human. So fill that void. Exercise is often recommended. Get a hobby. Learn a craft. Learn how to cook more healthy. Do something.

Me on 2/3/2010
Wearing these clothes, per the bathroom scale, I am 258.4lbs

My doctor has informed me that, to prep for possible surgery, I need to lose as much weight as possible. Apparently it's putting pressure on the spinal column and is being ooky. A crash diet, while normally not a good thing, is approved in this instance. *sigh*

Problem: I have to eat every time I take tramadol or I get very ill.

Jason's going to be buying lettuce tonight, but in the meantime, I'm making due.

Today:

6am: 1 hot dog. 180cal.

no, it's NOT good for me. But it was quick and available. This is a problem. When I hurt, I just want the pill in me asap, which means quick quick food that I don't have to stand long to make. Nuking a hot dog is quick. It doesn't require a lot of thought at 6am either.

11:20 am: soup. 1/ can campbells healthy request condensed minestrome. 100cal

so, a can has 2.5 servings @ 80cal each. 80*2.5=200cal, 200/2=100 cal
mixed with a can of water, adds no calories. this is more filling than i expected.

note: i had cans of non-condensed soup that had 2 servings per can...but the calories were 140 or 160 each (depending on flavor). So I went with condensed.

4:30pm: salad & chicken - 163 calories

1/2 chicken breast was 110calories
3 cups of salad, at 15cal/2 cups = 23cal
6tbsp of salsa, at 10cal/2tbsp = 30 cal

daily total: 443 calories
I also have a terrible headache and managed to survive a bad dizzy spell. :(

Jason's daily total is 1020calories.
10 kfc boneless buffalo wings (80cal each)
1 chicken breast (220cal)