OK, trying this again

As of this morning, my weight is 263.6. A week ago, it was 268 and change, so I'm not too upset.

Last night, we went to a work party. I was watching all the cute girls bouncing around in their skinny little dresses, and I was upset. Last night, I cried myself to sleep. Today, I was depressed most of the day.

Tonight, I have a new plan. It involves breaking down the issue to the base problem and tackling it. And it involves help, and rewards. I like the plan.

Issue: I want to lose weight
Obstacle: Carb issues. See, my blood sugars are a nightmare to control. I get hungry, I eat something. My body reacts to carbs by spiking up and then CRASHING low. They get low and I have to eat something. This doesn't help with weight loss at all. The medication they COULD put me on also acts as an appetite suppressant. Which means I don't eat as much, and then the blood sugar doesn't spike, the meds aren't needed and my body over reacts to meds + proper diet and again I'm in trouble.

In short:
meds + diet = blood sugar issues
meds alone = good
diet alone = good
no diet, no meds = blood sugar issues

And since meds alone haven't worked previously, I'm obviously going to have to go by diet alone. Which I've been trying for a while, and it's not working well at all. My body does not process carbs right.

Solution? Kill the carbs.

Now, some carbs are necessary for life, obviously. And I don't want to go overboard. So, after breaking down completely, and sobbing while Jason hugged me, we have a plan. :)

1) Remove obvious carbs. This means no: bread, crackers, chips, rice, pasta, potatoes (!), breading (like on fried chicken or fish sticks or jalapeno poppers). It also means cutting out obvious sugars (like in ice cream and cake and cookies and candy and marshamllows and chocolate sauce).
2) Ignoring incidental carbs. I'm not going to go overboard. Yes, there are some carbs in milk. Sure, green beans and spagetti sauce have some. So what? The amount is minor enough that I'm not going to worry about it.
3) Lots of meat and veggies in reasonable portions. No, instead of steak and potato i'm having 2 steaks. More like I shall have the steak, and some low-carb veggies.
4) Limit (without cutting out) high-carb veggies and fruit. I'm being careful with corn, carrots, and peas. Ditto with juice and fruit and such. But I'll have it...in LIMITED quantities.
5) I'll be eating lots of salads i suspect. And things that like dunking. So I need to be careful with Ranch. So, I'm going to switch to the 'dunk the fork in the ranch, then get the food' method, to avoid going overboard.

Jason's doing all this with me. It'll be awesome to have some help and support. Also, If I can do this through Saturday, on Sunday, he's taking me to fuddruckers. They have super-awesome burgers. :D I can smell them now!

Today, I ate:
Burger King Side Salad. Using dunky method in ranch. No idea how much ranch, very very little though, comparatively. It looked like I hadn't eaten any. (AWESOME) Piece of KFC grilled chicken. about 1/3 Cup of KFC cole slaw. 6 A&W mini corn dogs (last carbs, been craving them for a week, Jason surprised me with them, and they were REALLY yummy. They also don't count towards my 'being good through Sat)

Now, for the rest of the week we have a plan!
I'm skipping breakfast (or having some sausage or bacon, if needed)

Monday:
Lunch: Chicken, cole slaw
Dinner: Chicken, cole slaw

Tuesday:
Lunch: taco bar at work (lettuce instead of tortilla, skip rice & beans)
Dinner: pork chops & salad

Wednesday:
Lunch: salad
Dinner: salad

Thursday:
Lunch: salad
Dinner: hamburger patties & salad (or green beans, if we're out of salad mix)

Friday:
Lunch: salad...or ham and green beans, or some soup
Dinner: bacon & eggs

Saturday, Jason's parents are visiting and we're doing christmas and going out to lunch. Don't know where we're going to plan around it, but Jason's promised we'll find something where I can avoid carbs.

This shall be GOOD!